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So I realized that the reason I'm so bitter and sour all week is because I'm not getting what I want. What is it that I want? Freedom? Love? Friends? I don't know, I guess all of it.

I know I want

• new friends
• to lose my virginity
• to finally get a job
• to get my g1, finally
• to leave canada and not come back for a year

There's a lot of things that I want. One of them is the easiest, and that would be to lose my virginity, too bad I'm not easy... I'm not easy at all. At this rate it looks like I'm lose my virginity to my future fiance. I plan on getting my g1 tomorrow and then to go for bubble tea with Allen and Alice, I want it all to work out. Making new friends... that would be hard considering the people I'm usually with don't want me interacting with anybody but them (how lovely). But it's good that I'm finally seeing Masha on saturday, we're going for sushi, then to buy some makeup and necessities, then to FINALLY watch Project X. I'm really fucking excited. While we're going to be at the mall, I'm planning on daring myself to talk to hot strangers and ask them to dare me things for my truth or dare video that's coming up soon.

In regards to the other things on my list, I don't want to think about that right now.

 I want to make a new hair tutorial, and many makeup tutorials during the break, it'll make me feel really good to have done something remotely useful (homework and projects do not count).

My apologies

I know I haven't made a post since this Sunday, (March 4th), which is pretty crappy considering I'm always talking about something.

But then again, the only person I may be apologizing to for not being too current is myself because I know for a fact, nobody reads any of my posts--and that's okay.

Anyways, this week is halfway, I have no school on Friday, which means tomorrow is my last day of school until March 19 because....

MARCH BREAK BABY!!!
I am so beyond relieved, it's such a good feeling to know that I'll have a short break away from all the people at my school that I have to be with every single day for so many days and weeks and months a year. I'll be honest, I'm extremely shocked that I have made it through almost 3 years of high school all in one school.

I figured I would transfer schools in the middle of grade 9, but surprisingly I did not.

I'm also okay with that, it shows I'm strong and I can handle annoying ass people everyday, but it also goes to show that I kept a promise to myself and my ex best friend, which was to start and graduate the same high school, not to move because of bullying, because of bullshit, fake friends, etc. I stayed, and I plan on staying until my graduation which will be happening in a little over a year. Also very exciting.

I'm watching MILK right now. It's a great film. Absolutely amazing. When it first came out 4 years ago, I had planned on seeing it and I also had high expectations for it because of the brilliant cast. Now that I'm finally watching it for an English project (good excuse to enjoy a good film), I could not be more thrilled and pleasantly surprised. Yes I expected this movie to be good, but not fantastic. It exceeded my expectations very much and that makes me happy because not many movies can do that (or can they?)

Anyways, that's all for now.

Wooohooo

Got my photos and I am now editing them :) They look so freaking amazing!

Here's one of them:

11:59 PM

Firstly, I would just like to say that it's ironic that I started this post at 11:59pm and it's already 12:00am.

Anyways, today was a really good and relaxing day. I did pretty much nothing other than watch a movie and hang out until about 4:30 pm. In between, I went to tim hortons to get a bagel (2) and a donut (2). I also went to the drug mart to get some fake eyelashes and lipgloss. I took a nap at 4:38 until about 5:50, my dad called me which woke me up. He was notifying me that he was going to be home soon and I'd have to be ready to leave for my photoshoot. I finally got to the studio shortly after 6 and I was shooting with my dad and his friend until about 7:30 or 8. I got home around 8:30, maybe sooner. I went out for coffee to tim hortons with my friend whom I haven't seen since December. We wanted to hang out for an hour but it turned into 2 hours, and I'm glad it did because I really missed her. We caught up and had a few laughs.

I am now watching "Our Idiot Brother" which is a comedy starring Paul Rudd (one of my favorite actors). It's really good so far and it's really great that I'm in love with all of the actors in this film.

Anyways, cheers.